By Colm McShane
Please note that the book has not been put forward to a publisher yet for a few different reasons, but I hope that some day it the near future it will be available for the wider public. Get in touch if you are interested in learning more about my story.


In 2007 I stated writing. What started out as a suicide note quickly became my own form of therapy. This book is based on childhood trauma, addiction and mental health.

I was born in Belfast in 1981. As a child I grew up knowing only a life forged by The Troubles. I was surrounded by conflict for two decades.

Unfortunately I quickly realised that I faced my own troubles and faced a conflict within myself. I started experimenting with alcohol and drugs at a very young age and all too quickly it became a way of life for me. Instead of school yard tumbles like a lot of my peers I was moving from drug to drug not receiving an education.

This book depicts my journey from childhood to the man that I have become. I hit rock bottom and fortunately got myself back up. It describes my life growing up through The Troubles and my addiction.

I take you on a journey with me through developing an addiction, hitting rock bottom, pulling myself out and finally accepting my troubles and overcoming them.

I am now happily married with three beautiful children but I will never take this life for granted and this book is a reminder to me of how far I have come.

Further links to information on my inspirational talks and my artwork.